Maybe someone could help me understand this…
So, Romeo and I talked. You couldn’t call it talking for the first hour, it was more like me yelling at him. I told him everything on my mind, and then let him say what he wanted to say. To keep some details private I don’t want to talk about what we said… lots of it was hurtful, but it was all truthful which is what we both need.
After 2 hours had passed we ended on ok terms, but I told him I’d have to think about staying his friend. He told me he would respect my choice whatever it was, but that he’d much rather have me in his life, even just as friends. We hung up.
Later that night (or should I say earlier the next day?) at around 4 in the morning I was still up. I had spent most of the time pondering our situation, and trying to find a right answer and a right choice amongst this mess. I finally came to the conclusion that friends was better than nothing, but I’d have to be cautious if we ever became more than that again.
So, I sent him a message over facebook, telling him just that. That I couldn’t see him not being in my life no matter our situation, and that I was willing to forgive him.
GUESS WHAT?
Now three days after our initial talk and sending that message, I have yet to hear back from him.
I don’t even know what to think of this… It’s funny how your imagination runs wild when you have no answers. After not hearing from him for a day i sent him a text asking him if he got my message (you can miss it sometimes on facebook) and he never responded to that either.
I feel like an absolute fool…
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… now what?
(Day 3) on my diet. I got to work out last night at 24 hour fitness for the first time, but I wasn’t too happy with it. It was loud which kept me from hearing my own music, and there were a bunch of creepy buff dudes checking me out… at one in the morning :p Besides that, I’ve done really well my first three days, and I hope to go a good week before giving myself a break. I would have worked out tonight, but I crashed on the couch an hour ago, and now Im almost too tired to even write this. My arms are sore from weights which is a good sign, but I hate the feeling.
Thanks for stopping by, by the way! I’ve been getting a lot of views and it’s nice to know people might be reading what I’m ranting about! Please, leave a comment! I’d enjoy them 
-Confused as hell
